How the Pregnancy is Going.

It's not going well. I'm back in the hospital for the same stuff. The nauscea and vomitting. Tim and I are extremely concerned about the health of this baby as well as my health. Dr. Smallwood asked us what we thought the best treatment would be... Tim and I looked at each other. I couldn't say anything. Is there any treatment? We headed to my room and Tim had to leave. He needed to get Nate and Abby from our friend's house. Amanda and Micah. They are the best. I don't know what I'd do without them. I threw up the remainder of the night until about 4am. I finalled passed out when they gave me phenagrin. I had a ton of blood taken and of course it came back normal. I feel like one of the medical mysteries you watch on Discovery Health, but yet I feel I need to die in order for them to find out why this happens.

Dr. Smallwood did come in later and wanted to procede with the coversation we had last night. I broke down. I feel like this baby is going to kill me and I have 2 other babies at home who need me. He reassured me that he would take care of me. That nothing was going to happen to me... Doc that's a big promise, you sure you can commit? I also told him that I didn't have the heart, I couldn't tell him to take the baby. It's my baby. This baby relies on me to take care of him and protect him of all harm. Especially right now. He shook his head and said that I would have about a week to make up my mind. My mind is made up. As much as I hate being away from Nate and Abby. As much as my entire body aches, I can't.

I asked him about Home Health. Having the IV fluids continuing at home. He's looking into it with my insurance. I will then get the same treatment at home as I would in the hospital. We done it before and it's extremely constricting, but at least I would have some type of normalcy back into my life.

I need a ton of prayers. Me and Baby Boo both do.